I have a strong urge to get married, but there's a few problems..
1: I'm still getting my family used to the idea of me being Muslim
2: I need it to be long distance for the next few years.
No one wants to marry a girl he won't meet for several years. The only reason I can't bring him around is my is made up of racist, Islamaphobic individuals. With the exception of my grandmother.
It's not like I can move out because I am the only one (in this house of 5) who is taking care of her.
I know it sounds silly, but I miss my future husband and I haven't even met him yet. I pray for him, I miss him, I love him already. (Love is the only word I can think of to describe how I feel...)
I don't know... Maybe this is all just a bad idea. I don't even have a mahram who would be willing to help out.
I don't know what to do.
Dear sister Crystal,
Assalam u Alaikum Wa Rahmatullah,
I can only imagine how your are living your life as a Muslim in a family that is not only non-Muslim but also Islamophobic and unwelcoming towards people of other races as you mentioned in your question.
If you strongly feel the need for marriage and you understand that you are ready for it then you should start looking for a compatible good spouse. I would suggest that reaching out to your local Imam and local Muslim community would be a good starting point. You can explain what you are looking for in a spouse and then search can begin Insha'Allah. There are also some websites that you may explore.
May Allah give a good, comforting and loving spouse.
And Allah knows best.
Mufti Ikram ul Haq
Fatwa Center of America